I don't have a clear inner monologue. When I am alone it is mostly quiet. Perhaps that is why I get the urge to create.
When I am around other people, they shine their light on me revealing the tallest and most exiting edges of my personality. When I am alone, only my own light shines, and the contours of who I am is much harder to define.
I am so much more at ease in the company of other people, but as I grow older, I feel the need to become more at ease with my own self.